Mistake

Why am I so difficult to love? Why is it so easy for people to just get up and leave me? I do anything and everything for people, yet it doesn’t stop them from walking right out of my life without even saying goodbye. I just wish that I was worth staying with. I have no clue what makes me so revolting, and I honestly probably ever will. I realize that I love people too much. When I love, I love with everything I have in my soul. I choose to see the good in people, even if they have done ugly things in their past. Because in all reality, we’ve all done something in our life that we wish we could just go back and change forever. What’s shitty is that we have to live with it, and sure that’s how a person grows, but it’s still hard you know? Being constantly reminded of a mistake you made when you were weak for one goddamn second. That one mistake has shaped your entire future. And there’s nothing you can do about it. You’re trapped in this bubble of existence that will define you and it will never let you out.