alone

I sat in bed listening to songs that reminded me of you.

It didn't fully comprehend to me what I was exactly feeling,

but at that very moment I felt so lonely.

I never imagined feeling alone, feeling like I had no one to turn to, or to talk to.

I feel so lonely.

I find myself missing your perfect smile.

Missing your contagious laugh.

Missing hearing you call me beautiful and perfect even if I would just shake my head at you.

I just don't understand how you can make me feel so lonely, yet so loved.

I'm trying my best to not let myself fall for you,

to not let you see my heart entirely because I know that you'll just break it.

My heart can't take another break,

it's too fragile for that again.

But it's so god damn difficult not to want your entirety.

So I guess, let me down slowly.

Just please, please, don't break my heart. Please.