Warmth

I woke up from an anxiety attack this morning. I was shaking, my forehead and arms were covered with sweat. I don't know what triggered it to happen whilst I was sleeping. Maybe it's a sign. Maybe it's a sign of healing; instead of having nightmares every night. Maybe it's a sign of relapsing; I haven't hurt myself in months but what if it's my body telling me that I need to feel the cold metal dragging across my skin again. I just don't know what's going on. I honestly feel happy, I feel like I finally belong somewhere. But there's always been a part of me that wants someone by my side as I discover myself. To have someone to tell all my successes to and to know I have someone that will hold me when I have my weak days. I want to feel that warmth.