the end

For 5 years of my life, I have been in a constant battle with myself. For 5 years, I have been struggling with accepting myself for who I am and who I am meant to be. 2 years ago today, I finally decided that enough was enough. I needed to pick myself up and get the help that I needed. After all this time, I was looking for other people to save me. I wanted to feel less alone than I already felt. After numerous amounts of trial and error, I realized that the only person that could save me, was me. And let me tell you, it changed everything. Throughout these past years of rediscovering my worth and my entirety, I have lost numerous amounts of people for putting myself first for once in my life. I have also gained so many beautiful people in my life that have helped me throughout this journey, and I will always, always be forever grateful to them for blessing my life. I honestly thought that I wouldn't make it this far. Yeah I'll admit it, I still have days that I have to take one step at a time. I still have days where I don't think I can fight this mental illness battle anymore, but truth is, I'm human. I'll always have those days. I just have to remind myself that those days come and pass, that they do not define me in that very moment. I have myself and sometimes, that's all you need to conquer the world.

#recovery